A deeply intimate portrait of trans masochism inspired by a traumatic haircut Carta Monir experienced in her parents' bathtub as a teenager. Pro Dom Sir Testimony guides Carta through a bloody perversion of her experience from nearly two decades before, allowing her space to mourn, cry, and take pleasure where she previously wasn't able to.

Directed by Carta Monir. Performed by Carta Monir and Sir Testimony. Filmed by Kit and Red. Polaroids by Kit. Edited and scored by Aelita Parizek. Sound editing by Aelita Parizek and Cherry Halvey.

This film is not for everyone. It features needles piercing through Carta's scalp and then being pulled out, heavy bleeding, crying, and anal penetration.

World premiere screening at the Leather Archives and Museum in Chicago, IL on May 10, 2024.